......Its just me......
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
I have a cold, frist it was allergies really bad for a week and now i got sick. Monday night i blew my nose.....(ciould have been Tuesday morning really really early) and my nose started bleeding it was so gross. Anyway it has been like 4 days with this stupid thing! Grrr!!!!!! I went shopping, maybe did a little to much shopping......got 2 black light, black light paint, a mona lisa thing that hangs down and is made of bamboo, got some black light paint too. ok ok i need to stop spending money bc its not good buy its fun! Me and rebecca painted a big black poaster it looks so awesome! My sister and I painted some white paper and i hung it up.....I got quit my gym membership bc it was 40 dollars a month and i cant have that type of bill when i dont even go EVERY DAY so i bought this exercise ball. You can do so many exercies on it! i already have pilates tapes so i'm going to do those.... My Savings account was only under my moms name.....bc there was a problem with my old savings account and it wouldn't let me get my name on it. anywho now my name is on it. AND i have a little card.......so i can go to the ATM machine and get money my dad wasn't to happy, i told him i wouldn't use it with out his consult! and that it would be for emergencies......Er
If you squeezed my head snot would explode no joke well anyway i'm going take a shower
Friday, March 19, 2004
i should be in school right now, but i'm not.....only bc i'm really sore and my allerigies are bad........I only got out of 2 classes, A.T and Lit and comp, which are not so important, i mean for the day i skipped it. I turned stuff in and yeah. My heater works and i'm so happy bc it gets cold in here..........Well yeah i'm bored so i'm gonna go
Thursday, March 18, 2004
FUCK U BLOGGER JUST FUCK U! i write stuff down and u fucking earse it when i push post , and fuck you loud neighbors and stupid old dog who barks non stop and lives right next to my DAMN window
Monday, March 15, 2004
I have been so busy with the move and all, i have a test comming up, my sisters choir concert and my ice skating lessons, doing choirs counsling and a little tv and comp time.....yeah thats right i have to go to counsling ! ah !
I had an urge to cut today but i didn't.......My counslor told me holding ice until it melts in ur hands will give ur body the same effect well almost to as cutting.......and thats what i did, and my dad saw what i was doing and i know i made him sad...so i droped the ice and my hands were numb............Oh i gottta go to counsling tomorrow only good thing i have to spend 30 min in class last period lol ok well my face is dry so this is about all i'm gonna tell u
and its getting close to my bed time yeah thats right i got a bed time so just shut it! jk lol
Sunday, March 14, 2004
Ok so the move was good. Saturday was so busy. I woke about 9am and got some things ready, ate breakfast and then started packing. I cleaned the whole computer desk off, and had to move all the things out of my dresser. SO MUCH WORK to move i swear! Also i had to move the old computer out of the way so my dad could get threw....then like 15 min later my sister and dad showed up. I still hadn't taken a shower! So then i was running around trying to find some clean clothes and hopped into the shower got ready. Went to my moms and ran out the car door to Rebeccas (lives down the street) then we un packed and got some things in. My sister, rebcca and I went to a store got candy and pop and other stuff.....We got tickets for Secreet Window and we got to pick the seats, we were like 10-15 min early hehe....i had a lot of candy lol....then when it was over we went to the mall,. but frist we picked up Jesse (my sisters BF) we were there for like 2 hours dropped Rebecca off, then came home, i did the rest of my unpacking, cleaning and put 100 glow in the dark stars around my room (some on the celing).......
TODAY: we went to get a bean bag chair. my dad hooked the printer up and also speakers, i looked up to find a DSL place....my dad will call them later......we got "Rabbit ears" for the tv, i learned how to take money out of the bank thing where its out side u know and u can take money out of savings or checking lol....then i went to my moms to give her Visa back and got my Keyboard.......i couldn't find my phone i was so not happy but it was under the passanger seat in my dads truck........lol yeah......i gotta go so i can do my homework and also i have a bed time now! GRRR o well lol
I had a long ass weekend! Its all for the best :)
Friday, March 12, 2004
I'm tired and i'm gonna go to bed now, the last day at my moms. I was going to go to my dads, and i even packed some stuff....but my laundry isn't done.......its going to be so different, me living at my dads again but i will soon adapt to his style of living...
Thursday, March 11, 2004
You hear about what i go threw, but you will never truly understand it. The only person who really knows is my sister. She went through a LOT with me, and its almost over........I am moving to my dads again. I lived with him for 3 years (all of middel school) now half my 9th grade year is gone and i have to move back with him. Its all for the best. I will be mentally healthy and happy. Oh God i want to be happy. I am a daddys girl and i will always be....But before i knew my father (he wasn't around much, always working and making money) i was a mommys girl, really close to her and all but then when i moved with my dad i got to know him well and lets face it, my dad rocks. My mom is caring and nice, but she changed she trys to understand but she really cant. I LOVE her dont get me wrong but i am not close to her anymore ever sense i moved away. When i say its almost over i mean the whole moving around thing, the switching houses, all the drama and emotional pain. YES i will miss my sister and mother....My sister might move off on her own this summer, then my mom will be alone, sad i know. BUT if u really love your children you have to let them go, you know what i mean. When they are 18 set them free.
